Time to recharge my batteries

My son has been living at his Dad’s since Friday night. We have now started the shared custody. One week with Dad, one week with Mom. My son does not seemed too concerned. He was actually looking forward to going to his fathers on Friday. Him and my ex have a great relationship together. He is definitely a daddy’s boy. My son, has seen both of us every single day, even if it’s just for a few minutes. We are very mindful of the effects this separation has on him and we are trying to minimize any negative feelings on his part. I guess we can’t protect him from everything but we are making sure that he knows he is loved and that this separation is not caused by him. It’s sad not having him here with me, and when I do see him for the few minutes when it’s not my turn to have him, I cry after he leaves. He seems happy but I find it sad.

Yesterday I stuffed my face. I went to an all-you-can-eat sushi place with my friend. That was nice. She had been on vacation for the last couple of weeks and we did not get a chance to talk. Just a bit of texting. So we spent a couple of hours catching up. Then for supper I was invited to a friend’s house. Well, I didn’t think to far in advance when I accepted the invitation that I might still be full from lunch. Luckily, we ate a little late but I was so freaking stuffed at the end of the day.

Today I went cycling and had a 3 hour nap. Did not have breakfast before cycling because I was still so full from yesterday. I feel really drained today. Maybe the last two weeks are catching up with me. I start work again tomorrow. I was on vacation for the last couple of weeks. Which was a good thing, because if I would have had to go to work during these past few weeks it would have been awful. At least this way, I was able to concentrate on the changes in my life.

I’m looking forward to this week and seeing how it will unfold. First week where I am officially separated (not legally, just physically), where I do not have my son living with me and where I go back to work and resume my day-to-day life. Let’s see what the future brings…